We are going through a lot of leadership training and psychometrics tests to analyse our leaderships skills!

We have a trained ex Army Navy Commander who is conducting these!

My analysis was:

1. I am a Feeler( Meaning I feel to intensely and deeply and am exceedingly sensitive in nature and sensitive to others feelings and emotions)

2. My areas of intelligence or Strong traits are in the Musical,Artistic(spatial) linguistic ,introspective and spiritual side. Meaning I have a varied intelligence levels and lest of it are analytical or mathematical :((considering I work in an IT industry this is bad)

I was as good as told by the trainer that I am wasting my intelligence in the wrong field and plus was told I need to open up and not look for the answers within but allow others to help.

His observation for me was though I am confident I still hold myself back and m thoughts back. I control myself and do not allow others to help me.

In a way he is right,whenever in trouble I withdraw within myself and stay there till i solve my conflicts.

Like Right now!

I am feeling at peace!

I have accepted the facts and expectations.

I know I cant find the kind of Man I am looking for and each day the chances are slim and I know my expectations are possibly a bit high and I am unable to compromise on them.

So either I lower my expectations and be with a Man I can not be happy with( if I can find one) or keep the and stay single.

I chose the later, I would rather be single than be stuck with someone I cant even like or respect.

I cant change my past and I cant change my parents divorce. I have done nothing wrong in seeking love and affection and if it meant a couple of failed relationships so be it.

I wont make excuses for my past and nor will i allow any man to make me feel small.

If You don't like me.. Well your Choice.

I am what I am(Baggage and all) Take it leave!

The issue now is: I need to think of a career which is fulfilling and pays!

Something In either Music or Artistic!