The Green Ogress

I went shopping today..

I got a skirt and a few tops and lingeries!! I spend a lot actually..

Well 4000 Indian Rupees to be exact and thats hardly 50 Pounds or 85$ but I got a skirt and 3 tops and a few lingeries!!

I feel the guilt of spending so much!! This is my huge shopping spree after well February 09 when i had to spend 6000 Indian Rupees on Cousins wedding preparations

Now home and on the internet

Have a good weekend!!

We are going through a lot of leadership training and psychometrics tests to analyse our leaderships skills!

We have a trained ex Army Navy Commander who is conducting these!

My analysis was:

1. I am a Feeler( Meaning I feel to intensely and deeply and am exceedingly sensitive in nature and sensitive to others feelings and emotions)

2. My areas of intelligence or Strong traits are in the Musical,Artistic(spatial) linguistic ,introspective and spiritual side. Meaning I have a varied intelligence levels and lest of it are analytical or mathematical (considering I work in an IT industry this is bad)

I was as good as told by the trainer that I am wasting my intelligence in the wrong field and plus was told I need to open up and not look for the answers within but allow others to help.

His observation for me was though I am confident I still hold myself back and m thoughts back. I control myself and do not allow others to help me.

In a way he is right,whenever in trouble I withdraw within myself and stay there till i solve my conflicts.

Like Right now!

I am feeling at peace!

I have accepted the facts and expectations.

I know I cant find the kind of Man I am looking for and each day the chances are slim and I know my expectations are possibly a bit high and I am unable to compromise on them.

So either I lower my expectations and be with a Man I can not be happy with( if I can find one) or keep the and stay single.

I chose the later, I would rather be single than be stuck with someone I cant even like or respect.

I cant change my past and I cant change my parents divorce. I have done nothing wrong in seeking love and affection and if it meant a couple of failed relationships so be it.

I wont make excuses for my past and nor will i allow any man to make me feel small.

If You don't like me.. Well your Choice.

I am what I am(Baggage and all) Take it leave!

The issue now is: I need to think of a career which is fulfilling and pays!

Something In either Music or Artistic!

So i am officially 28 now!!

I took off work.

Actually I felt sad and upset at work because 2 hours after midnight and no one had wished me Birthday at work.(the friends had ofcourse called me)

I felt like I was a nobody at work!

Then at 4 am they got me a huge cake and ,well, we go into a cake fight where the cake was mostly on my face and hair.

I came home at 8 AM smelling of chocolate and cream

Then i took today off and I went shopping a bit.

Mum got my a pair of gold ear rings and cake.

Now I am home sitting in front of Computer. It was not a bad day!!

It's 9 days before i turn the dreaded 28

BRRR

PS: I got internet at home and i am all setup..

Skype is ready for those who wish to call me

Mala: heads up I added you on Skype