The Green Ogress

Just 10 days to  my Birthday, the  dreaded annual event..

Is it time to start lying about my age? Well it might be but I am not ready to hide it yet... maybe! :>>

Not so big on celebration since my financial situation is pretty bad....

and I dont have that many enthusiastic friends who would remember since they are married and have a lot going on in their life.

 I do have one single friend visiting town around my Birthday and he and I can get drunk and be merry if need be..( silver lining perhaps?)

I always thought that by the time I am nearing 30 i would be rich, successful and have a great boyfriend...( well..har har har!)

Well here I am ( not waxed or shaved in 2 months. sporting the au nautaurelle look) not  very enthusiastic about turning 27..

Oh I do sport a pixie hairstyle at the moment.. I sheared off my locks!

Its Diwali and its supposed to be the season to shop ..

Hmm but I cant.. I am at home.. gaining fat and cleaning house and not really into celebrations because I cant afford it.

Its the worst time ever..

ever!

But I wont be a big party pooper..

Wish you all a very Happy Diwali and a prosperous New year( Ok this is the Hindu New Year not the official one)

I mean the troubles?

When do they stop? if they do?

I got an email from a venture capitalist here however they need $400 from me for setting up a presentation and then 2 rounds of meetings and incase I dont get the grant i get 250$ back.

Well sad part? I dont have that kinda money! at all..

Second sad part.. my account is dwildling and have only enough to last me 2.5 months max if we scringe and save.

Third.. I still dont have a steady income source.

Fourth .. due to global economic meltdown there have been many companies who had closed and  the remaining are not hiring or firing people because  trying to be cost effective.

So this means? I still dont have a job and  money is still a problem.

Ooh and umm i dont have a shoulder to lean on and i cant cry though I really really want to.. for sake of my mother I cant.. not infront of her..

I am growing fat as well.. because of the comfort food i have been eating and ofcourse the beers i have been drinking.

Then I dont have a boyfriend or a partner to share life with( but that's not top priority)

Aaaand.. Monsieur will be getting married by next year..( Arranged.. his parents will look out for a respectable girl who is probably a virgin or from a good family) .. I am not fine by this information because  it sucks that all the people I know are getting married or already married leaving me with no single friends to hang out with.. and the Men choose someone else over me..

ooh and I have 5 dogs to manage.. since people in my stupid stupid town want  lab puppies for free and if I ask for a price they back out... or be weird enough to ask them as a "gift"

In these times feeding 5 dogs is  very very expensive..

Everyone feels i made the worst decision  by quitting ( little do they know i had no choice).

I get to hear from everywhere how "stupid" i have been..( well thanks!)

Can i stop ranting now?

NO I  JOLLY WELL CANT!

I emailed my banks today stating i cant make payments towards my card and a loan i have which has only  more payments but I cant pay..

I simply cant pay anyone anything anymore.

My Cousin (Mum's elder sister's son) is getting married in November/Dec this year.

We are Hindu's and she is a Muslim and her family are being very horrible. They tried to lock her up one day to stop her from going to work ( and meeting my cousin).

Our Family is happy and we dont feel the "religion" issue, after all my mother's other sister married a Muslim in 1970's when it was an even bigger taboo.

But I hope the wedding goes well * fingers crossed*

x

I am still alive and kicking in BCUK!

Ofcourse I again have over 28 posts to read!!!!!!!!

Working from home and no new development, except i have been scrubbing the floor of my house.

Recently my bro called up and was cribbing to mum how I quit job and am a financial burden... ( I am not.. i have spent 2.5 months on the money I saved up and I still have some to go so I haven't borrowed one penny from him.)

But he feels I am a financial burden because I am not lending him money( He bought himself a car when he couldn't afford the payments.)

I used to live and earn and pay 2 rents and pay for mum and then didnt have money left but he doesnt pay my rent or send me money and is spending all he earns on himself and still finds fault in me!

LOL!

I dont care anymore.

I have my life to lead and he now is living separate and will have to manage himself!