The Green Ogress

1. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex?

Noo never! Maybe I should try!

2. How often do you wank?

Stopped completely!

3. Where do you wish you were right now?

Near a sea with white sands and peace and solitude and a nice house by it!

4. Were you in love with the first person you slept with?

Yes I think i was then!

5. Do you have any guilt inside of you?

Dont we ALL?

6. Have you ever wished anyone dead, however brief?

Maybe but then I would pray to God for being so petty

7. Assuming you HAD to be, would you rather be a colour, smell or sound?

Colour and that too Red

8. How and when do you imagine you are going to die?

Hmm When I am nearing 45 or so and in my house hopefully

9. Do you think love is forever?

Well my past experience makes me say No but my heart feels "yes"

10. What is your worst fear for your future?

Uncertanity and Loneliness

11. Do you LOVE anything about yourself? If so, what is it?

I have a soft heart! sadly easily hurt though a strong will

12. Would you lie if you KNEW you could never get caught?

Yes

13. Could you have sex knowing someone could hear you?

If I was dead drunk LOL

14. What, if anything, do you do to make people do what you want?

Ask them if they can and if its not a bother

15. How many times, if any, have you lied answering these questions?

0 times

I met her, EX's wife!

Apparently she was able to scare even that big guy from Crime department because she called his bluff!

He thought I had done some criminal stuff to them and so I should meet and finish it peacefully instead of getting into some legal battle and having my Reputation and Character ruined!

And in India an unmarried girl whose ex boyfriend states she is stalking and harrasing them seems more believable!

I would have to fight to proove my innocence and that would cost me very dearly!

So i met her at 1 AM indian time and she spoke to me for next 2 hours.

Blaming me for being the cause of rift with her sister-in-law and breaking up the relationship between brother -sister and depriving her In laws of their grandchild blah and demanding what I have against her!

Basically she wanted a sounding board and I was it for all her pent up anger frustration!

I confronted ex with the lies he wove and he had nothing to state but stare and I challenged him to call me a liar and deny he lied to me and ineffect even his current wife!

It was a non screaming battle though at one point his wife tried to intimidate me by coming too close as if to strike, I gave her the coldest stare ever and she stopped!

Oh she was all" I have never done any wrong and I never make mistakes" and I was as usual called a "Cold heartless bitch" for not grovelling at their feet or show any remorse!

I was clear and told her " that I do regret somethings things I said and did and maybe they were uncalled for however I was angry at being lied and cheated and then pitied and have them tell tales to people about me"

Well she ofcourse denied ever making any statements or even emailing my ex company malicious emails!

I didnt expect her to come clean anyway!

Over all she then cried and all my ex did was stare at TV and make no comments and behave like I am a delinquent or like I am a errant child!

Ofcourse I was told I am a messed up kid in life! And was told "to Bad" ex "didnt want me because I couldnt cook and pamper and now he has someone who can" . Well I told them both I am happier single and believe I am who I am and a Man should love me for that, to which I am told that with "my strong history and background of divorce family and an ex boyfriend It will take a very different man to accept me".

Haha! Well if Men in India are so blind Iam happier single!

Hell its over from what I know and I dont have anything to say or do! I am drained from this and it seems this chapter might be coming to a close finally!

But at my cost!

Still I do believe good things will happen to me

Since Now i am back in town the Ex' wife has been trying to get me to meet her and my ex alone in their house only.

I was okay to meet but my mum was afraid she's have men who could overpower me or something equally bad!

So my Mum and her elder sister contacted this really big guy in the Crime investigation department of India and had him call the ex..

Seems ex might be told to nicely backoff or deal with consequences.

I am not sure how this will work.. but Maybe it will deter their activities!

Hey all!

I have been away for a while,life is hectic in terms of hunting for a job.

I havent got anything yet but i am positive it will work out. I am not scared and I feel like this is my time for recovering and getting something really good. I am expecting a Miracle of sorts

Something I noted this week:

Men for some reason get really miffed if you breakup with them because they cant "offer" what I need i.e a meaningful relationship.I broke up with Monsieur because he can never marry me or even consider it and so that relationship was a compromise on my needs and I told him that. Seems I hit some nerve or something by stating the word "Compromise".

And also :

I have 2 job interviews and seems the people here are either dumb or dont have the job openings for my kinda work.!!!
Still I will not give up and continue to be positive.

Overall:

I hope things will be positive when the next time i am online and I am pretty sure They will be!

PSL i have over 46 private blogs I havent read and this weekend will borrow a friends laptop and be online from home to catch up.

Keep praying for me

xxx

.. I am alive and still kicking in Bombay!It's raining like mad and I am living at my Aunt's place for the week and will then travel to Pune which is 3 hours from here.

My Zoya is in labor since 3 days and delivered 8 pups out of which one was a twin and 4 died

She had some complications but the 4 little darlings are alive and have very strong lungs and I call mum and can hear them "meowing" in the background.

We have a vet who is at home with my pet since 3 days ensuring she is doing ok.

I haven't found a Job yet but made another contact in Bombay who can help me.

So Far So Good

I feel more relaxed and am recovering my bad phase and my aunt and her son are helpful with their advices and support.

Of course my Brother had to send me a stinker email telling me " your responsibility was to be with mum when Zoya is delivering"

I felt mad because i know my responsibilities and if its so much why the hell couldn't he wait back a week when he knew i would arrive around first week August and Zoya will deliver..

Over all i am good..