I dont know why i live or my purpose.

Each day i live i cant bear to anymore.. Depression does that to a person I guess..

I wanted so much and dreamed of a better life only to see all of my dreams methodically shattered.

I always is pouring.. it always is a "phase"

How long do i delude myself that my troubles are only temporary? Especially when they never seem to cease?

My mother told me I was turning negative-something i wasnt before..

I cant help being negative at the face of it all and not one respite.. not one..

No shoulder to cry on , no hand to hold and no one to stand by me and help me face this all.

Dont tell me to stop this nonsense... I know it is.. But I have no one I cant turn to rant about it all..

I am angry at myself for being stupid and dating ex and then stupid going all angry when he cheated and try to extract my revenge..

My small piece of revenge and it's costing me my life..

What harm did i do when i got my revenge? Nothing on them.. Infact nothing really happened..

I am the person who was hurt and betrayed yet I get to continue paying..

There is no God, no fairness and no good.

All I want is to be left alone and not be bothered .. thats too much to ask I guess...

What goes around comes around? Well those who hurt me dont really seem to be burning in hell..

I want to scream till my throat turns sore..

Whatever Happens .. I am not going down without a fight.. a real good fight..