Wondering the Irony of my life...

I know I know seriously boring stuff

as a Kid I always wanted to sing and be a musician one day

When I grew up I realized being a musician is tough and I had no money to back me up so I dumped that one.

I never wanted to study a lot as a kid and wanted to concentrate on music.

As I grew up I realized Studies are what i need to work in the field i am in and it would have been a great help had I perused a professional education.

As a Kid I thought Marriage and commitment was scary and that i never want to get into relationships after what happened with my parents.

Now that i am (hopefully) wiser , I realize I want Marriage and family very much . I missed having a family and I long to be a part of one. The feeling of being secure and stable.

When I was younger I wanted to travel the world.

I got to travel the world ,however the stress and tension and lack of life it has lead to makes me wonder if I ever knew what I want.

Now I am scared to wish for something I dreadfully want- stability, love and family. I wonder will i hate it when i do get it?

It makes me think on a dialogue from "Bruce Almighty" when Morgan Freeman tells Jim Carey " Since when have humans ever known what they really want"