I used to always always fail in Maths eversince around grade 5 I guess..

I never got over it and developed a Phobia of the subject( Teachers screaming and calling me a dimwit with a whole class of students sniggering didnt help)

Till date if I am calculating and no one's watching me I am okay with simple stuff.. but the moment I have someone ask me " How much percentage is this or how much cost blah blah" I go all cold and mind goes numb and blank..

Even if I know the answer I get Nervous..

I have never recovered of my phobia..

Once ex decided that I am too ditzy and wanted to teach me basics.. So he started asking me in a very strict tone and I went all cold , since I didnt answer He got irritated and screamed!

oh well thats past.. how do I get over this?

Dang! and I am sitting in front of an excel sheet which has over 15 worksheets and billing calculations in 6 figure(Pounds)

Fuck.