Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

.. I spoke about Monsieur.. hmm well to tell you something.. we are currently on good friends status..

I can actually talk and laugh about things..(My feelings arent totally out) but if we continue on this I think we will land up as good platonic friends..

*who knew this was possible?*

PS:

Office Letcher(Boss of a different dept) kept staring at my boobs when Monsieur, me ,my boss and letcher were in the same area.. Monsieur got very uncomfortable with letcher so kinda got restless..

The letcher actually was staring at boobs and legs( under a knee length skirt)

Office Letcher #2 from my Pune office arrived here and when we were at the entrance actually(believe me on this) turned and started right at my boobs and said "hi PF what are you doing here"

I felt like saying... "Hey I am up here" but decided to instead mumble some response and hurry away!!

My clients found something where we made a small error on (which doesnt impact anyone) and send an email for us to correct....

Sadly marked it to this person who is the onsite client coordinator(sales) and the sales escalated it further up so basically everyone erupted and started emailing even before I started my day!!!!

I have over 45 emails and I had to go through them all and reply and investigate on them etc etc.

The client is a pretty chilled out person and when I replied to his email explaining why and how the "miscommunication" took place he totally undertstood and was cool- wish my management will wait before jumping the gun..

anyway so all mails done with .. I am a zombie

* head on desk trying to relax*

Whats wrong with it? I have been refreshing the pages and things and yet It wont load my comments and replies!!!!

*sobs*

*Emotional breakdown*

My wonderful administration team(frustration team more like it) has done something marvellous.

I requested to be put into a external hotel/B7B or Guest House but no!!

They asked me to move to a different Guest House,so when I reached there I was informed there are no rooms.

So tonight I have to sleep on a sofa till in the morning when a room gets empty and cleaned!!

Wonderful!!!

In Continuation my Head of Training wears mini white skirts is huge and ugly and cannot carry it off with grace and ends up looking like a slut *gags*

This is gross violation by my top management.

In my protest I am wearing capri demins and a red pepe tee(with full sleeves)
The word "Pepe" embriodered with tiny glass thingys and black peep toe patent leather shoes

My Company was in the News today for implementing a very strict dress code policy!!

Its really silly though and the reason for it?

"People are distracted by some who dress a bit flashy in bright colours and fitted clothes" !!!

* okay so In an organisation where only 10% women work if we dress nicely then the men drool and cannot concentrate*

one of India’s top IT companies with its head office in Pune, has enforced a strict dress code for its employees. Employees found "inappropriately" dressed are being sent home to change.

Over 23,000 professionals work in this global network of 24 locations, including 11 development centres and 13 global sales offices.

Employees would be given a warning for the first offence. In case the offence is repeated, the employee will be slapped with a penalty.

The company will, however, allow exceptions in case of medical issues which prevent adherence to the code, but only temporarily and with approval from HR.

vice-president (HR), who approved the code, justified its implementation. "The organisation initially only had a guideline regarding attire, but since some employees escaped following it, a policy had to be formulated," he said.

"We got complaints from employees who found the dressing style of some employees objectionable and distracting, and hence the need to formulate a policy." He said women security personnel will check women employees.

Dress code violations will be treated as serious and will attract strict disciplinary action. All instances of disciplinary action will be noted in the employee’s personal records as well as the discipline diary maintained at the location.

I sent a message to Monsieur after I read this

Me: How are you dressed today? did they ask you to leave because you are dressed nicely and women like me find that very "Objectionable" since you look good?

Him: I dont know about me but I can tell you there are men here who find you "distracting" and "objectionable"

Dress Code for women:

Women employees can wear salwar-kameez or churidar kurta with sleeves. “Heavily sequined and embroidered clothes must be avoided. Preferably avoid clothes with large prints and loud, flashy colours,” it says, also specifying that traditional Indian silk saris with prominent zari borders are not to be worn. Traditional Indian footwear like jootis and kolhapuris do not constitute formal attire. Women employees can also wear formal trousers/skirt (without long slits) and a sleeved formal blouse. While closed toe-heel shoes are recommended, formal looking sandals are also acceptable. Use of athletic shoes, sneakers, flip-flops and slippers are not allowed. Mini-skirts, spaghetti-strap dresses, halter-tops, and even collarless T-shirts are a strict no-no.

4.50 AM 25 OCtober 07

I was at my room in the Guest House reading "Where Rainbows End"by cecelia Ahern, when I heard a slight commotion inside.

Another Man "corporate biggie from my company" was staying over and from the glasses and Ice buckets in the kitchen possibly drunk!

His reason for making noise? A Razor!!

Who in the Hell goes up and wakes the cook and caretaker for a razor??
(dont all men carry razors?)

Then he said something which was like "i see a razor in my bathroom is that used or fresh"

Its probably left behind by someone!!

* moron look at the blades if you see hairy bits then its a used one*

By the way who needs a razor at 4.50 Am???

* Hmm I was shaving me legs in the bathroom at that time but then I had my own razor so it doesnt count as mad*

in a discussion with our dear Usky!!

All good men are either:

1)Too Old
2)Too young
3)Gay
4)Married
5)Dead

or Pure fiction

1: I am currently out at a job interview and will reply to you if I fail to get the position.

3: You are receiving this automatic notification because I am out of the office. If I was in, chances are you wouldn't have received anything at all.

4: Sorry to have missed you but I am at the doctors having my brain removed so that I may be promoted to management

ROFL

I seem to have lost track fo time and date (I thought this weekend was going to be 3rd November )

I have a headache !!! and monsieur spoke to me today after like over 7-8 days(we work in the same department and so it was a casual "Hiya Princess how are you".

Spent 5-10 minutes but the headache got worse,got out to get some tea,didnt help,ate a cookie still no go..

Now i am going out to get some fresh air... maybe that helps?

I feel home sick.... I really do I miss my brother and Mother!!

*thank god I have a leave of a week coming up when I go back to my city to be with them*

My bro called me the other day saying

Bro:kiddo I miss you ,how long will you be there?
Me: why bro ,you miss me bugging you all day?
Bro: *hehehe*
Me; oh I I'd be there for your Birthday so its just a week now!!

Awwwww

Bro and I are at loggerheads when at home but I guess beneath all the fight and stuff we love each other a lot..

Then my friends (I am the godmother to their kid) also were with bro and all kept telling me how much they miss me!!!!

*all choked up*

*I miss them too*

Okay so today I was sleeping when this " ex colleague"(the one who invited me to his party where the entire married man with wife and baby fiasco happened) arrived at my Guest house and was adamant to take me out for coffee.

I acted grumpy,pissed and basically like a lovely porcupine or maybe a good natured cat who loves to take a swipe at you with her claws!!

Why??

Well first I arrive back from work at 4 Am and and not really in the mood to socialise after waking up around 1 PM.

Second i was still angry over the fiasco and he is a reminder of it

Third when I got dressed to go for coffee he suggested I visit that Rat's piss(married man) - "princess i assure you I will ask him to go out" ???????

I mean I go to his house and ask him to leave??? NO THANK YOU!!!!

I put my foot down and bared my fangs and informed him psuedo sweetly " stop now and drop me here I refuse to go anywhere with you and I refuse to meet him"

All men are B@stards!!! (hmm make that 99% @stards)">b@stards)

PS: I got myself a coffee made the ex colleague drop me off at my work place!!

.. I havent not spent a single dime from the money he lent!!

I am scringing and saving every penny till the end of the month and then I will return him the cash.

It's not Like I dont want to use that money but it's way too much and I will use it only when i need to.. so far there has been no desperate need!!

.. to be my sexy bodyguard ,from all the jerks and llwnts,rats poo of the world!!

anyone wants to audition?

Whats it with Married sleazy men with new born babies?

Why do they see a girl(for the first time ever) and start sliding close to tell her " I find you hot".

Why when they know there is no way in Hell the girl will ever sleep with him they still get drunk (steal the mobile number form a common friend) and call you and say:

jerk: Princess I met you for the first time and they way you spoke of your family and are dedicated ,made me think "You are worth it,WORTH IT.

*worth what you pissed llwnt* * bag of scum and frog mucus*

*rats piss*

*eggs of a maggot*

*lizard poo*

I mean? What kind of sick f*cked up guy says this when he has a baby and wife in the same room????

Sorry all I just had to get this out, I agree I am am not the best judge of character but I went to a friend's place for a small get-together and he had invited his close friends "married couple with baby" and this is what Happened!!!

I felt so horrid because his wife instantly knew and started a screaming bout and I was close to tears over the entire fiasco (my friend feeling worse for they were his guests and i was a stranger to all except him)

I informed my friend I am never attending any party with these people involved and told him to ask his dear married friend to stop calling me.

PS: This is probably the 2nd Time a Married guy has propositioned me!! Am I a All Sleazy guy Magnet?

I feel horrible

yup Yup Yup( no this is not a yapping puppy)

I have a celibacy Ticker *points up*for 4 years 2 months and that will change( probably increase from 4 years to errm 10)

no this is not self pity... its bare facts...

ho hum!

* im getting drunk tomorrow with a few friends*

I feel Listless,dull though I am smiling and laughing..

I can smile and laugh (not just fake) even though I may feel like a part of me dying..

I have booked a trip from the 9th Nov to 19th Nov ,going to my hometown (Pune) for my Birthday & my Brother's birthday as well as the Indian Festival of Deepawali.

I still dont feel all energetic and enthusiastic.

I turn 26 on 10th of November!! *sigh*

*most of my friends and batch mates are married with kids and I am the only single one*

* so they are the smug marrieds and I am a Singleton*

*Need to find new friends who are single and who would love to talk and have the same situation as I have ,over drinks*

* all keep telling me I need to marry marry marry*

* I am fed up and told them and my mum to go look for a guy (India has this concept of 'Arranged marriage')*

Arranged marriage is a scary concept for me but it's the way things are followed by 95% of Indians.

Parents look for a partner for their kids and then let the kids meet and if all goes ok they are married off,much like a business deal!!

*shudders*

philghodg wrote this.Isnt he awesome?

Oh how she's smiling
So Pretty and beguiling

no one can own her
Our Princess Fiona

*Gloating*

..cant he be a prick and a jerk and a prized git so Its easier for me to hate him?

* munches on an apple*

*darn he gave me the apple*

*mysteries of the new world?*

*fawk*

Today he came up to me and simply told me that he is lending me some money and that I can return it once I get my pay on 1st Nov.

I thanked him and told him I dont need it but he simply dragged me and took me to the nearest ATM got the money ( took us 10 minutes to squabble since I was mulishly refusing to take any) and told me to shut up and let him know if I need more.

He didnt act weird,I was acting weird and he told me to stop it because I didnt ask him anything when he needed my credit card to purchase flight tickets and train tickets when in UK.(he returned it all though)

* I could almost hug him for being so nice*

It makes it more difficult for me when he is being nice...

* darn darn darn*

*Fawk this is just not fair*

*hate being this soft hearted*

Hmm Why why oh why dear god do i have to fall for the nice wrong man?

Hmm * eats chocolate*

PS I found this awesome sitewhere they show how to cook via videos . I have been watching how to make cakes,croissants,muffins and some Indian food too.. The wesite is called Video Jug- Click here!!

I am reading the Book Lolita

I like it so far!! it is a good read to understand the psychological side of  pedophilia,ofcourse It's horrible and makes me cringe to hear him lust after  prepubescent girls

Err I have a slight problem and so I did text him and err so we got into this convo and I get a few replies

Problems:

1. I need a place to stay since Company Guest House cannot accomodate me any longer( he knows the city well since its his hometown)
2.There is a cash crunch and err Nopes I didnt ask him for financial help but he did offer to.I told him i'd ask mum(but he knows my mum doesnt have any to spare)

His message suddenly

You are an amazing person and dont sell yourself short.

He also smsed

if you need help and some money tell me you dont need to ask your mum.

Yep!! just one brownie for today!! there is a lot to be said about comfort food!!

it does make me feel a bit better I know if I over do it I might have to deal with weight issues, but I think one brownie a day is perfectly fine(plus I drink lemonade to negate the effect )

*I hope*

I have been an absolute saint-No drinks,no crying bouts(well err there was one last night but it lasted 4-5 mins),and I havent even bicthed about Monsieur with anyone.

I feel mostly fine

OOOh Big news!!

MY HR emailed me today suddenly telling me that she has my application for an AM promotion!!!!*does a jig*(I didnt apply for any so it means the boss forwarded my name)

I think I will be promoted to Asst.Manager!!

One silver lining

Day 15 Oct,Weight 110 Pounds (maybe more I havent weighed); One chocolate croissant and one Chocolate muffin as well as Pasta for lunch;Minutes spend having mock conversations with Monsieur 1000080(V bad)

Hmm Last Night Monsieur and me were again on text messaging for an hour or more.

He suddenly sent me a text which said the following

I am sorry... I am being selfish.. Should have told you long ago... I dont feel the same way.. for me its just friendship with sex

I think I am back on my chocolate diet to get over this

PS: I give up!! I am not going to date ,I am going to lead a Nun like life only that I am not a Nun!

I am going to be 26 next Month!!! Thought It would be nice to ring it in with someone but then... Not all dreams come true *sigh*

I dont really feel any animosity towards him. I think Him being honest about it is admirable,he did not lie or ever make flase promises!! Most Men I have known would tell a woman "I love you" just to get her into bed!

My Project went Live and into production yesterday and so had a small party  and a nice Black Forest Cake.

The Head of Department praised us on good work done and also the clients appreciated  our work( me and the 3 guys with me)  felt really good..

A lot of people were there ,like the head of training  a huge  woman with no sense of dressing(she wears transparent tops and this one tiny skirt and then sits on a desk with one leg up- you get the picture  )

So we were asked to cut the cake and  then one of the guys decided to  pick a piece and ask me to take a bite of that cake.

I took a bite and thats when it happened..... the  cake being very soft and filled with cream  fell *splat* on my  shirt(on the right boob to be exact)  *eeeeeks*

I was wearing a Turqoise colour Shirt in a synthetic material which gets close to trasnparent when wet!!!

I rushed to the Loo and thankfully the ladies was empty.

Had to strip off the shirt and wash it with soap and water(thankfully no lasting stain) and dry it by the hand dryer!!

Some  Go Live party eh?

.. I reached back at my Guest House and the lady had the AC temperature set at 30 Degrees C!!!

Oh well All i could do was laugh since It is so silly and getting irritated wont help. I reduced the AC temp to 23 Degrees C and decided to read and then sleep.

I read in the bathroom since She stares if I switch on a small reading light.

Today she will be gone and I am happy!!!!

Monsieur has been sending me loads of SMS's and well lets see where that goes.

I managed to get my project operational and into production today and so we had a party and our head of department congratulated us on a good job done

Over all I think it is a good day!!

Today I had a headache all the day at work!

Also Monsieur is away to a different town for 3 days!!!!!!!

I have a roomie I have to share my guest house room with since last week and she is one messy,weird lady and It drives me crazy how she always shuts off the AC or switches the temperature to 28 Degrees C!!!!!

I mean 28 Degrees is room temp.Why keep an AC on if thats the case????????????

Then she messed up the Loo and I am very finicky about loo being clean!

I just pray to god she goes(she will leave today!!)

*praise the lord*

I was in my home town(where i was born and the town I left 5 years ago).

It's the town my dad lives in,ofcourse I didnt meet him but I met my godfather and a cousin and a few college friends.

It was fun and I was feeling nostalgic being in a House I grew up in but now empty except that a part of it is now converted into an office which my Godfather uses(Godfather if you dont remember was the Man in my mother's life). My room is now an office with Workstations and printers. It kinda hit hard because I felt I lost something!

It just didnt feel like home anymore.

It was so hot there that I actually got nose bleeds because of the heat!!!! So I decided to stay indoors and out of the Sun as much as possible

Monsieur kept messaging me throughout and we exchanged a lot of text messages even after midnight!

He asked me a question

Why Am i soo moody. I feel emotionally dead and drained but Sexually very much aware and active.

To which I reply that he's probably just using sex as an emotional release and that he is not emotionally dead!!

I dont think he is but he feels like that!!!!!!!

Today he met me and just send me a text hinting us living in together!!

I know thats not going to happen because first He has his parents and family in this town and in India Live in is not accepted!!

Anyway He does send over mixed signals... dont you think so?

I am grumpy and moody!!

I am in pain and seems like someone took my body and put it through a wringing machine..

Every bone aches and all i feel like is going home and hide under the covers in my cozy bed!!

I want hugs.. not the hug and pat and there type hug nice long warm hug!!

*It would be better if Monsieur would hug but thats asking for the moon so I wont*

*feel catty*

I hate being a woman!!

*jealous of men*

*craves chocolate*