I kept giving myself pep talks all day!!

Kept telling myself there's something more fucked up better for you.

All things happen for the best.

Keep the faith!

dont wanna keep the fucking faith, every time something horrible happens just when things were going good for me

I just want to shut the doors to it all and live alone..

This way i dont get hurt ever!!

But over all(besides the fucked up selfconfidence and internal battle with god) I am good..

I feel better and ready to accept that life sucks this too shall pass!!