.. I dont blame or brand Monsieur as a bad person for not reciprocating.

:no:

I think it's just my bad luck!!

I would love to be a part of his life and share but if he doesnt love me... maybe its devious God's plan and mine and his are different path

Which means I am angry at my luck and upset with god as to why he such things.. make you fall in love with someone who will never love you.

Oh Monsieur did reply to a normal SMS i sent this morning.. coming from him after I told him how I feel.. Its a Big deal..

Normally I would expect the guy to put on their Nike's and run as fast as they can in the opposite direction for the fear of a clingy lovelorn woman..

Or take advantage (in some cases)

So, maybe because I Love him so much he is a nice person.. He hasnt really done anything hurtfull.... besides keep Silent over the text I sent..not reply to my messages often,or so..

*maybe my mind is acting up.. he never promised anything and would normally behave this way but now I feel it more because I confessed my feelings*

*need a break*

*stop thinking*

*eats a brownie*