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Watching the Pic of Monsieur bare chested!!

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm he felt so amazing when I met him for 2 days... 2 Wonderful days....

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm lost in Monsieur thoughts..Ooooooooooooo I am excited to meet him when i get back

I am positively on the edge wishing these 2 days fly by and I can hug him and hold him close again...and for much longer than 10 minutes!!

I am addicted to Monsieur Thats why alcohol or chocolate dont taste good anymore

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I had a dream about him a few days ago... It was hot ,sweaty and made my heart beat like a sledge hammer.

Anyway a few more days

I had one more guy who knew me like 5 years ago call me fat...

Thank you very much !! I was a wee thinner then and If i am a bit "plumper" well I love my fleshy bits.

I hate the fanatic men who keep exclaiming"Oh my you look fat"

I mean I am over 250 Pounds then you can call me fat ,hell then I will call myself an elephant..

But I am just a 110 pounds and so I think I am definitely not fat,Unless I am so big breasted that people think it's an all over fat thing

Anyway all those who think I am fat can sod off

I am talking about FOOOD!!

Oh well the other guys are leaving US tomorrow and so wanted me over in their studio room for dinner.

I cooked a bit but what killed me was the amount of Oil these guys use.

Sadly guys dont know that 4 tomatoes dont need a pan full of oil to fry em!

We are trying to sautee them not deep fry em. Then added the onions and eggs to make scrambled eggs

Being brought up where I am taught to be polite-I screamed "OH MY GOD SO MUCH OIL?" When I looked into the pan.

I had already cooked my bit which has little oil (hardly any)

Anyway the food turned out decent(I will have nightmares of the calories I have just consumed)

I also took some brownies as dessert for them however now I cant look at any fatty food!

To Drown it I will sip a bit of wine

Not me!!!!!!!! There is no chance I can self shag myself into pregnancy...

My friend (The angry with the world & men) one.

She was 7 weeks pregnant from the man she was causally sleeping with.

She wanted to keep the baby and had to get it aborted because the gynaec told her its abnormal and needs to be aborted!

I was shocked, 7 weeks pregnant!!

She is now suffering from depression and pain of her loss.

She has been sleeping with a few men on and off and all because her ex jilted her!

I feel sad she is going through all this, I cant ever sleep around because i feel cold doing that.

True i had a one nighter but I know I felt no pride and didnt continue on it.

The size of men's penis doesnt facinate me at all.. I wish she would realise this is not helping her!!

It's been a while since someone asked me that question and meant it!

I mean asking me if I am really alright!!

My friend "the angry with men & world" woman asked me "Sweety how are you really? are you happy?"

To my amazement my reply was a honest and spontaneous "I am happy"

I feel content and satisfied most of the times,I really do!

I have a job, family(screwed as it maybe and drive me insane) and some really lovely friends!

I know sometimes I crave to have a family of my own ,feel lonely,depressed , a little lost but I know mostly I am fine for the first time in my life.

I know there are loads of things to happen and some dark clouds will always ruin the day but I am under the influence of Alcohol and feel pretty optimistic

I have been off Drinks for sometime

But I give in to my craving today!!! I got a tiny sample bottle of Merlot!!

*sips*

*aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh*

* to compensate for forced celibacy*

I am watching(unfortunately) this show called Maury! where people are fighting over the parentage of the child

I mean DNA testing on TV showing if the woman who claims a guy to be the father of a baby is speaking the truth or not!

Its disgusting to see some women lied and had babies with different men and told their husbands lies and then women who were telling the truth but the guys calling them rude names and saying baby not theirs..

*disgusted*

What is the world coming to?

I mean all in the same of reality TV???

Also its sad to see no morals no honesty no self control no family values no principles -nothing

I had a Lovely chat with MenoMama. I must say she is so soft spoken and wonderful to talk to.

Me ? I am a lil on the "fiesty" *cough* type. I have been told I have a voice which is like a high Pitched teenager errrm!!

Anyway, it was lovely chatting with you MenoMama!

We talked about Indian food and my trip and loads of things!!!!

Oh MenoMama cooks rotis and Dal Makhani(My fav absolutely)

Next time I am here and I get a chance to travel to Canada I am definitely meeting her

..... I bought Victorias secret Silk stalking and Garter belt(please note Seany)

My shopping includes

1)Silk stalking
2)Garter belt
3)Lip gloss
4)Tops & skirts(For friends & family)
5)Dresses(for me)
6)Tees(for the men i know & a baby )
7)shoes,shoes ,shoes i got 4 pairs
8)Perfum for maa & bro
9)Riff raff to give anyone I forgot
10)Godiva stuff(loads)
11)Panties
12)cosmetics

I was in Tampa for the weekend with my cousin and her family.

I met them after 5 years and it was a lovely visit.

I met my dear nephew too and here are a few words of pure wisdom from a 7 year old.

1st One:

His Mother asked if i need lipstick and the 7 year old replies," She is too young to wear lipstick".

2nd One:

We were discussing age and he told me " Auntie you must be 22 years old"

You sure know this kid will be a very sorted young man and knows what to say to a woman

I for the love of God cant understand why some documentary makers try to make an ass of the viewers by making night mode videos of "haunted" places!!

I mean all they do i carry a camera into dark tunnels and exclaim over "shadows/movements" made from their own camera and flash lights and figment of their imagination.

I mean If you are in a underground tunnel it's going to be cold ..Helloooooooo its stone and underground and dank and old and definitelt cold! But no these guys have to make it look like "oooh i am suddenly feeling cold" as if the tunnel was warm as toast all this while (FYI- they were wearing thick jackets)

I dont say there are no ghosts but these people are fakes!

Ghosts dont wait for people with camera's to pose for them and if ghosts are dead spirits then they wont be visible in "infra red" which is basically to monitor body heat or even cold sensors for that matter!

I know for a fact I once had a ghostly/ eerie experience and it was scary but it was nothing like they show on TV!

I was 11 years old and I heard noises in my dad's old house( its an independent bungalow with 3 bedrooms and approx 4000 Sq ft in area)

Those noises couldnt have been any neighbours and I was all alone at home and no pets and no humans around!

I heard the noise of dangling keys and a light outline of a man!

My mother later told me it could be my granddad who passed away even before mum & dad got married, She said many in the house had seen an image of him.

Thats it nothing else!!

I dont know If it was my imagination or not but it sure was there

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Wish I had that tiny waist and sexy pout and hair!!!!

Ah well I got those breasts

I want to Murder my Company Bank.

They issued me an international Debit/Credit card instead of travellers cheques and Now It wont swipe nor let me withdraw money!

*kills the bank and company people*

*Shoots them landlubbers*

*cackles*

* Imagines placing those fucking jerks on the rack*

* torture rack which slowly pulls each limb apart*

*feels more calm and satisfied*

Okay that's done now the money issue!!! Who would love to loan me some?

The PrincessFiona trust fund(for Atlanta visit)

Thats where i am checked in at!

Ever since I have arrived I have lost my will to drink! I drink and I make a face like gulping some horribly bitter medicine.

Another crazy thing happening I barely eat all meals yet on my pictures people tell me i have gained fat!!

I try to eath Healthy and walk to work and drink chocolate milk.

I have Oats for breakfast, fruits for lunch and dinner and end it with milk!!

HOW can i still gain ??? Its the Hotel to blame-crazy things happen here!

I miss Monsieur and he hasnt been replying to emails(busy i think, i know I have been)

Then my Cousin in Tampa is pregnant the second time and my friend in London is planning a second baby(wants me married by the time second one is delivered/conceived)

All this is the reason I feel i am at the Asylum!

Life is surreal and crazy

.. of me living with loads of dogs "weird Dawg Lady". My carcass surrounded by Dawgs!!

.....of me living like Miss Havisham Adopting a girl and driving her cold towards men!!

a wealthy(NOT) spinster, who lives in her ruined mansion(Bedsit) with her adopted daughter, looking like "the witch of the place".

Hmm hmm

I am Living alone and frankly I am enjoying it.

I Enjoy eating alone and watch TV and not have any tensions and sleep in time and wake up and go to work.

I feel at peace , It's a very loner existance but I dont mind as long as I have a couple of friends I can call or even meet a few times a month.

This is not to say that I hate my family,it's just that living alone is like a breath of fresh air after living is a closet.

I felt like my life was over and I had no personal life or time.

I used to get hysterical ,cry and constantly feel like i am about to explode.

Maybe what I needed was sometime alone and i feel so much better now.

* Dances on springy bed*

* Trying to watch Friends on TV*

* Slam leg on side table*

*ouch ouch*

but I feel Ridiculously happy

* to make things really spicy need Monsieur here*

Thats where I was all day today.

http://www.stonemountainpark.com/

It was fun to see this place- it was beautiful. However I was feeling irritable because I was with 4 Men and they were all irritatin.

Man1- Latin American Cab Driver
Man2-Irritatin Co worker #1
Man3-Irritatin Co worker #2
Man4-Irritatin Co worker #3

& Me!!!!

The Cab Driver was along because we needed transportation back so the Guys asked him to spend the day with us.

He was Okay besides the fact that I distinctly felt pawed as he kept exclaiming "buetiful" in his accent at my pictures.

I can handle that because it's easy to ignore just superficial compliments.

The 3 co-workers were really irritating.

First they kept making weird noises all over the park and screaming and mock fighting and wrestling all over.

Then One of them thought I would find it amusing to also play rough and I literally had to yank his hands off my arm and say "NO"

I am sure it was simply high spirits but They acted like college hooligans.

Then they were not following certain rules of the park and at one of their rides those people stopped the ride because they wanted to tell them to "settle down"

I find these men irritable because they dont know how to behave.

I Want a baby!

Well I see babies and kinda feel like I would love to have one too..

It's difficult to write this because I spent a loong time refusing to accept that I actually may have a uterus and a maternal bone!

Having one of my own seems like a impossibility because after what happened with me as a child I refused to have my own go through the emotional trauma when parents break up.

I like the idea of marriage and then babies because family is important! But how many families actually have love left in it after even 3 years?

Do I want my kid to turn up as confused and hurt as i was? No I dont!

This is the main reason I avoid thinking about babies and family! I know If i commit for me I will give it all my attention. I spent 3 years trying to make things work with ex even though i knew there was little hope.

I take family seriously and so I never want to risk having to tell my child "choose between dad and mom".

I may end up adopting being a single parent! I know that I would love to see a child grow in my house and wipe its tears ,get exasperated over its screaming tantrums, call it a little devil, see it off to school and deal with bloody teenage issues.

Who knows if our own children grow up even hating us at times

Hmmmmm on second thoughts- I am better off this way , atleast wont have a child telling me in 40 years that i am screw up

You know what? I think I need a walk to the Publix store and get some wine to drown this crazy thought.

Ps: I didnt get wine I got a large quart of Chocolate milk
I dont feel like drinking

I had Rice with Indian Black Lentils curry
*burp*

The headlines

8:15 AM- While walking down to my office building saw a man drive while sucking his thumb

6:30PM- Walking down back to Hotel had a bunch of possibly teenagers hoot while I walked by and then scream "FUCK YOU"

Deductions:

1)I really walk too much!!
2)Did my walking cause the man to suck his thumb and teens to hoot?
3)need to have myself carried to work in a stately carriage!
4)you think the Queen of England would lend her carriage?

.. Thats what I told Monsieur just now over email.

It was amazing chat we had for 1 hour approx. It was night time in India.

We bitched about work, ex boss who is now a boss of this project I am working on and so he is up to his usual moronic antics!!

And a little explicit chat as well which I thoroughly enjoy!

I miss him *sigh*

*Imagines cuddling Monsieur*

*He feels like a warm blanket err no a heating pad*

Well he does , My hands and feet are generally cold and he is so deliciously HOT

Oh well we had a veeeerrrrrry naughty chat which included discussions of a certain "hot & heavy" moment in a deserted Men's Loo!!

(Did I tell you about that?)

If I didnt well i was too busy being smug and happy at my own daring!!!!
(we could have gotten in trouble)

Oh we almost got caught

But Thats the reason for me saying "if you could read my mind now"

*super naughty ideas*

..Monsieur e-mailed asking when I return

TEN FIRSTS
First best friend: Meeta
First screen name: vidfox
First Pet: Parrot
First Piercing: ears
First Crush: Eric Strahorn
First Record: Madonna
First Car: Never had one
First Love: I would rather not name my ex since now im not sure if i did
First stuffed animal: stuffed monkey

NINE LASTS
Last alcoholic beverage: Beer(had it yesterday night)
Last car ride: a week ago from hotel to work
Last movie seen: Monster in Law
Last phone call made: My Aunt in New York to thank for sending me a package

Last CD Played: none
Last Bubble bath: Erm... 3 days ago
Last time you cried: been a month

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: No
Have you ever been arrested: No
Have you ever skinny dipped: No
Have you ever been on TV: Yes
Have you ever kissed someone, and then regretted it: yes!
Have you ever had a sex dream about someone: yes-Monsieur!!
Have you ever had sex? yes

SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING
1. Lace panty
2. Cami satin top
3. Hair clip
4. Shorts
5. finger rings
6. earrings
7. nothing else

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. Had breakfast
2. work
3. work
4. had dinner
5. Blogged
6. Read

FIVE FAVOURITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. Thinking about Monsieur
2. my phone cause it plays music
3. sitting in my room at night
4. Thinking about Monsieur
5. Books

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ALMOST ANYTHING TO
1. My diary
2. Blog people
3. Monsieur
4. Mirror

THREE CHOICES
1. Black or White: white
2. Hot or Cold: hot
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Learn to play any musicial instrument
2. Love

ONE THING YOU REGRET
Losing my virginity to my ex.

Besides the fact that I am finding it harder to understand the crap new project at work which I need to ,it sure is.

I have loads of ready to eat Indian curries and I had those*pats tummy*

MY tummy finally looks a lil filled out instead of sucked in ,ofcourse I have been told I have lost weight and become leaner!

*looks at backside to check where the fat dropped off from*

But to make it 100% perfect? I need one MAIN ingredient-Monsieur!

I do I do! I am dying 1 year of celibacy almost and we meet for 2 Days and now again this????????????

Anyway I will see him in the second week of september *yay*

*dreams of Monsieur while rubbing body lotion on legs*

*even while bathing*

*while cooking*

*while typing*

*while reading and even when I sleep*

This is what I Cooked today! I got Groceries




This is my ONLY and first Bottle of beer!!

I kinda added a lil extra Salt but it was delicious

5 herbs italian bread and scrambled eggs !!! Yummmmmm

Ingredients:

1 Tomato
1/2 Onion
1/2 Green chillie
salt to taste
2 eggs (small)
a lil paprika
oil

Oh wow now sipping Chocolate milk

PS: The method to cook is:

pour a little oil in a pan and let it heat a bit. Add chopped onions & green chillies. Let it turn golden brown and add the tomatoes. Let it fry for 4 minutes or when you see the tomato soften up .

Break the eggs and add directly to pan. mix till eggs cooked.

Serve!!

This is Dinner

Menu:

1)Egg salad Sandwich in fresh wheat bread
2)Banana Cake slice with walnuts

Beverage:

1)Water
2)Coffee

* dreams of spicy curries*

But this aint bad either!!

I was at this mall called "Circuit City" to buy a MemoryStick Pro for my Sony camera.

I bought it and just stepped out and decided to click a few pictures standing right out outside .

I was focusing at the general view when this tall 20ish black guy walks past me and says "did you click me?"

I replied "oh err nopes I didnt"

He says " oh you missed me!" * i actually saw him look at me from head to toe and smile*

* I didnt feel a thing if you wanna know* * not attracted at all* *it was more amusing and funny*

I again replied "I sure missed ya"

*was i flirting?*

* i never flirted*

*infact I never had any guy so blatantly flirt with me,especially a stranger*

*except Monsieur but he never flirted from first glance only once i err told him i had a crush on him*

* I love Monsieur flirting with me*

*Thinks of the taxi ride with Monsieur*

*smiles*

LSE-Low Self Esteem attack!!

I am going through the lenghty presentations to learn the new project and it's all french, greek ,german & latin to me.

Its' too tedious and I have no idea what the hell am i doing here!

*bites nails* *breaks a few nails*

I mean it i have been here since Wedbesday night and at work since Thursday the rest of the guys have a pretty decent grasp and seem so cool.

When I ask them "what this is about" they just laugh and say "we have no clue at all"

I just dont know if they are jesting or actually mean it!

My role is supposed to be the most important one and I had no idea I will be the Project Manager and co-ordinator till Thursday morning!

There is no proper training and I have just NO IDEA!!

* Breathe PF breathe*

* Panic attack*

*what if i am a complete disaster?*

*feet turned cold*

*switched off A/c *

*Scrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeach*

As per MenoMama's Blog! I really think they are overrated!

As i keep thinking they are a lump of fat and are ment for breast feeding!! I mean I see em everyday and find them totally odinary and regular!

So why the facination? well err I am at a loss here!!

Monsieur finds my breasts err i guess the word was "awesome" and my stupid reaction was " they are just breasts and fat mass".

His reply was "yeah,but they are delicious" * proceeds to show me how delicious*

*censored stuff*

* glazed expression*

*gives self mental shake*

Oh well I got off the track for a while there

But seriously all women have breasts!! whats the big deal?