Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

Okay so I have been depressing in my previous blogs However here's an update.

It's My mother's birthday on 1 July So we went out got Rose wine and had a small family dinner,basically small and quiet time as we hugged and wished her at midnight.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM

Still have to decide on a gift and maybe go out for dinner too.. Bro has been acting much better and more himself since he saw the pictures of his ex girlfriend dancing at her wedding(hope this is a closure for him)

Oh I was online today in the afternoon and Monsieur was online too..He was reading my BLOG

So far i made all excuses of how I am a crazy PMSing types who write blogs because he was pretty much reading insane and stupid things I have written about him..

He also clarified which i feel i should mention here that he never had "loads of one night stands" as i have mentioned in an earlier blog.

He has has only one and rest were all "relationships". So there i cleared the air!!

His suggestion that I can probably spice it up here.. (wonder how i do that)

So i suggested I will spice it up when he returns and i have spicey bits to write about

He read all about my past too and I fear he thinks im pretty much a nut case (He really aint as horrible as i paint him to be)

Alright I am off to drink a bit more of the rose wine and read Harry Potter book 5 in my red Satin shorts and tank .My dog is sulking since i didnt offer her crisps and wine and decided to punish me by answering her nature call in my room creating a puddle which looked like water logging

see you all.. Good Night!!!

This is difficult to write and it’s something I'm very closed about.
I know reading this will make you feel uncomfortable.

The reason is because no one can understand what i went through and it's hurts when someone tries to tell you "its okay it’s past". I know It's past but it left scars i can erase for life.

As a teen i was sexually and physically abused. I went through a phase where i was depressed and suicidal.

I remember that day 10 years ago clearly. Cant believe it was 10 years ago.

I was beaten up by and man in service when i was 16 and my mother got the worst because she tried to save me.The man was drunk and I am not sure why he attacked us in the first place.

All i know is that he hit me and picked me up and threw me on the concrete floor, my mother tried to save me and in return got beaten up badly.

She had cracked ribs and was bleeding and had internal blood clots -bed ridden for a month. I had bruises and hurt my spine.

We ran from out house post that to save our lives because we feared after we launched a police complaint that he would come back to kill us at night.

We got mother treated and pleaded a lot to the law to help us. Instead the Culprit filed a counter complaint on me for being a juvenile delinquent and attacking him(??)

During those times mother hired a physiotherapist to cure the spine injury.

That Man instead of curing my injury grabbed me and pulled my clothes off to feel my breasts and also hand over my crotch(thankfully i was wearing denims and grabbed his hand when he tried to unbutton).He didnt do anything besides feel and i was in such a mental state of shock i just didnt react,didnt scream it felt like my mind went numb and i couldnt feel anymore.Just got up buttoned myself and left

I clearly remember that his parting word were "you are such an innocent" as i walked out.

At home i went into the bathroom took a loofah and scrubbed my body so hard i bad scratch marks and sore skin all over.But i still felt numb.

I never told my mother this but stopped my treatment(mum was still bedridden & lawyers fighting my case)

I felt detached!

Since then sex repulsed me and i hated to show my body. I wore clothes which were 4 sizes too large and resembled sacks.

That was a reason why I never had boyfriends and when i finally did have one when he touched me i went numb as if my mind just rejected anyone touching me.

I dated him for 3 years but physically i couldnt connect with him because he always made fun of what happened to me and my past. Always told me "It was years ago get over it".He treated me like i have no brains no feelings and am just a pretty face to showoff..

I know know i dated him because i was vulnerable and lonely and he was safe.He never really got through the layers of barriers i had created.

Maybe it's not all his fault that he cheated on me... after all he thought i was emotionally and physically frigid.

Now i think i am over it however i still feel that my mind can detach itself and not feel..Scares me that i can never really have a relationship(physical or otherwise) because of this.

It's 2.30 AM my time... *snore*

I was chatting with Monsieur and we got talkin on blogs and i told him how i had one.

That kinda caught his interest and he asked me to share the link with him * biting nails*

I told him im not comfortable sharing it since it mentions him and it contains some private stuff I wouldnt dream of telling him.

*Note to self: learn how to keep mouth SHUT*

He managed to twist my arm and i leaked my link to him.

He read my blog and the places where i mention him and now i am in a state of utter mess..

What if he thinks i mention him too much ?

What if he gets some notions about me? * Curses*

Oh god I dont think i can take this anymore * Gulps beer*

Ooh just received a e-mail from him saying I write very nice and that I should be the top 10 blogger

* Digs a hole hides her head*

I Generally never got compliments but on the rare occasions i did they were the kinds that left an impression and I can never forget them.

The first and really nice one i can remember was when i was 17 years old and in School one of my Lecturers came up and told me"Your Smile makes my day". Coming from a teacher it was unexpected i was so taken aback at first but i cherish that memory for ever.

The second most memorable was recent from my Monsieur.One day over chat he said,"do you believe in God sending Angels in the form of people in your life when you most need it?"

Not aware where this was going i replied,"yes sometimes he does"

His reply "you are my angel sent by god"

I was speechless after that to say the least.

I ask you to share some really cherished compliments..

Since I'm 30% bitchy I think im very nice and sweet person.

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*sighs*  * doomed to be nice*

I was reading the Blog by Rhianwen and it reminded me of My Parents divorce! It was a tough time for us.

I remember as a kid my parents never really got along and they never had what you call a Warm relationship.
My dad was found drinking most of the evenings and watching TV and mum was not a working woman, so was generally found in the kitchens cooking or cleaning.

Dad would always find fault with mum's cooking and cleaning and with her in general. Mum would remain silent but definitely angry.
I remember as a kid I just never felt close to dad it was like he was there or not. Didn’t matter.

I was scared of him though 'cause he would beat us up when he was drunk and if we made a mistake like break a glass or make some noise.
Mother took up a job when I was around 8 years old because she wanted to be independent of Dad (he gave her very little money to buy us new clothes or books and also run the house in it)

I remember one day mum had to almost beg and fight with dad to get us new winter clothes because we had outgrown our older ones and he finally got one cardigan for me and one for bro.
My Dad hated it when mum took up work and he started accusing her of being unfaithful and things went downhill to the extent he threw her out along with us one summer and we had to stay a month with Mum's Sister.

He later came home calling her back since my grandmother passed away, but that didn’t make him treat us any better.
One night after a few drinks he beat up my mother and she cracked a bone and had a few bruises, mum took us and ran from home at midnight to file a complaint against him and we spent one entire night sleeping in a old Suzuki car.

We came back home next morning when we were sure dad was out at work.
Things never improved and shouting, yelling, beating never stopped. Finally Dad told mum to get out and take the kids too..
Mum had no choice so one day when dad was at work mum packed our clothes and a few possessions and left.

We lived in a small flat and it was so silent after dad's house -no screaming, no shouting and no crying.
It was our first winter and we had no beds no blankets not many woolens and no stove to cook on or pots/pans utensils.
My Mother's friend helped, he got us blankets when to his shock he saw we were sleeping without much cover and shivering.

Mum's salary was so less it couldn’t pay anything besides rent.
She slowly worked her way to earn enough to pay for our education and afford to bring us up.
She had no lawyer (lawyers charge money) so the Divorce proceedings didn’t happen till 3 years later.

Dad refused to give her Alimony and only agreed to pay a meager sum for us (which he stopped paying when we turned 18)
Mum in the mean time fell in love with the friend who helped us through years(he was married) and that's caused her a lot of heartache and tore us to see her emotionally drained.

I managed to finish my 12th Grade and never really could finish my education since we were as usual in financial mess and started working since i was 21(used to work since 14 actually but that was simply pocket money not enough to support education).
Bro finished his education as most of Mother's savings went into funding his education and by the time i was ready for University there was hardly anyleft to pay my fees.

I still want to complete my education but the financial mess just doesn’t end. I don’t earn enough to be 100% independent and I need to have another person supporting ( in this case it's my brother) and he has his own personal set back and is in a emotional mess phase.

My own ex-Boyfriend couldn’t digest my background (Divorced women in India are treated like characterless women who people can have no strings sex with and her children are deemed to be without morals)
Life's tough at times but It's got its own lovely parts. I know one thing for sure after losing and getting hurt so much I still love life and I know I have a lot of love inside to share, just that not everyone understands.. But hey that’s life!!

Copy these questions, post your answers in your blog and tag five more people.

1. When in doubt... Blame it on the weather!!

2. The most Tagalicious blogger is... Adamantixx

3. Given half a chance, I would... be Cap'ain Planet and clean the world of Scum LOL

4. I'd rather be... in bed cuddling......... the Pillow what else

5. Who knew that... I could actually work!!! * cackles*

Okay Im not sure if I believe this but Ryan 's msg said I will have 15 years of bad luck so im posting

Below are true descriptions of zodiac
signs, with traits from a book written
35 years ago by an astrologist
predictions. Read your sign, then
forward it on, with your zodiac sign
and label on the subject line.

VIRGO- The Promiscuous One
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to
find. Great when found. Loves being in
long relationships. So much love to
give. Not one to mess with. Very
pretty

AQUARIUS - The One that Waits
Dominant in relationships. Someone
loves them right now. Always Wants the
last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal.
Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to.
Everything you ever wanted. Easy to
please. The one and only. 7 Years of
bad luck if you do not repost.

PISCES - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves
to joke. Very Good sense of humor.
Energetic. Predict future. GREAT
kisser. Always get what they want.
Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in
long relationship. Talkative.
Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad luck
if you do not repost.

LEO - The Coolest one
Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love
is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and
sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most
caring person Ever meet! however not
the kind of person you wanna mess
with... u might end up crying... 9
years of bad luck if you do not repost.

GEMINI - The Liar
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not
one to mess with. Funny. Excellent
kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves
relationships,
Addictive. Loud. 16 years of bad luck
if you do not repost.

CANCER - Does It In The Water
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser.
One of a kind. Loves being In long-
term relationships. Extremely
energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed
your expectations. Especially with
your mom. Not a Fighter, But will
Knock your lights out. 2 years of bad
luck if you do not repost.

ARIES- Irresistible
Nice Love is one of a kind. Great
listeners.. Lover
not a fighter, but will still knock
you out. Trustworthy. Always happy.
Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY
FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a
beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE
MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck
if you do not repost.

SAGITTARIUS-The Lion
Great talker. Attractive and
passionate. Laid back. Knows how to
Have fun. Is really good at almost
anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable.
Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive.
Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long
relationships. Talkative. Not one to
mess with. Rare to find. Good when
found. 7 years of bad luck if you do
not repost.

TAURUS- The Cutie
Most Amazing kisser. Very high appeal.
Love is one of a kind. Very romantic.
Most caring person you will ever meet!
Entirely creative. Extremely random
and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous.
Great at telling Stories. Not a
Fighter, But will Knock your lights
out if it comes down to it. Someone
you should hold on to. 12 years of bad
luck if you do not repost.

LIBRA - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of
attention. High appeal. Has the last
word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun
to be around. Extremely weird but in a
good way. Good Sense of Humor!!!
Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she
wants. Loves to joke. Very popular.
Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad
luck if you do not repost.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy.
Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future.
Irresistible. Loves being in long
relationships. Great talker. Always
gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves
to own Geminis' in sports. Extremely
fun. Loves to joke. Smart. 24 years of
bad luck if you do not repost.

SCORPIO - Aggressive.
Loves being in long relationships.
Likes to give a good fight for what
they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves
to help people in times of need. Good
kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A
caring person. One of a kind. Not one
to mess with. Are the most attractive
people on earth! 15 years of bad luck
if you do not
repost.

Since all other Quickies in my life are a at Halt stage, Here's an update

The preparations have driven me insane and so I had to meet Sapphire for a few Drinks

There's a lot of curosity and excitement generated by Hen Night.

Dafter is simply tickled pink and we will se her in her best Avatar ever.

We also have Adamantixx as Special Menu(Hush!!!!!) Dont get any ideas Girls..

I Have a feeling most of us will be too drunk to notice anything else.

The food is decided and the games and drinks and venue.. We need a few Volunteers for Karaoke and games.

Ah ummm i think i can take a much needed short break from my hectic schedule * sips a beer*

I hope to see all Lady FOOLS of La Spice there !!

Hey Dafter can I borrow the Cocktail menu from Happy Hour? Might add to the Fun

I will need a DJ too for the music so that we can all dance without shoes!!

Now This is my all time favourite song.. But If i had drops of Jupiter in my Hair I think I'd have like large earth sized drops and that's a bit too much

However the lyrics is beautiful:

"Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there"

"Now that shes back in the atmosphere
Im afraid that she might think of me as plain ol jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land"

and the most soul stirring verse:

"Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know youre wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone
Conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me"

 

 So Ladies what game will it be?

Hen Night Menu

Ah that was a quick update what did you think??

Okay here's what we got so far:

The Hen night celebrations has stirred a lot of excitement

Dafter will also wear ballet shoes for the music and give us a spot of performance and has Kindly agreed to get Pink Bubbly!!

We have an "Special act" by essexboy(in his new Avatar as essexyboy) ,Denzil,Adamantixx

I am Going to be publishin the menu Soon.

Watch this Space!!

I Have been asked by La Spice to invite the girls for an exclusive hen night A La Spice!

The date is July 13 ,Friday 5 PM onwards at laSpice blogland Mansion

Dress code: Pink

This is for the women and i have to organise the following

1 Food
2 Drinks
3 Entertainment(besides all hens yacking)

All girls please help need suggestions to make this one big Hen night!!

I got this new invitation to accept and this is what it states

My username at blog.co.uk is: erectiledysfunctioninfo (http://www.blog.co.uk/user/erectiledysfunctioninfo/)

My personal message to you:

hi... how r u... saw ur profile... can we chat... write me riichard.gere@gmail.com

A few things i would love to clarify

1)I dont suffer from erectile dysfunction

2)I am a WOMAN

3)Richard gere????

I scored a 71

"Why come so far and play "deumure" when you are oh so close! See what you get when you stop being such a tease"

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I have a few habits which are unlady like and totally annoying.

I generally dont do those in public but at home when im alone I do tend to just let go and be a pig

Let me list a few(this goes to prove im not perfect and am proud)

1)pull at my bra when it kinda gets uncomfortable when hot
2)scratch my bum(at home)
3)scratch my nose
5)pick at my nails or pull my ears
6)tap my feet and twitch when bored
7)Yawn when im bored (Especially when in a meeting or training)

We all have one even though we deny it!

Lets just make it simple!

My deepest wish was to be born a Man and see the world differently.. but when i look at how i look i think not because i would make a very feminine Man

But being a Man has so many advantages(loads of women, no bra, no Periods)

Ofcouse in my wish I would be a very good looking tall man with loads of women buzzing aroud and I would have to think about how many i date or sleep with!!!!!!

Maybe i'd make a very shallow guy

Wishes would go on , I want to know what's your secret!!!

What is your favorite word? - Cool

What is your least favorite word? - abbreviation

What turns you on creatively? - Art

What turns you on spiritually? - Music

What turns you on emotionally? - Books

What turns you off? - Hipocracy

What sound or noise do you love? - Rain falling on the ground

What sound or noise do you hate? - door bell
What is your favorite swear word? - Fuck!

What profession other than your own would you like to attempt? - Artist or a actress

What profession would you not like to do? - My current job!!

If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates? - "Miss Devil ,Welcome to Heaven. We need help in making it fun"

I am Feeling Happier, I got a offer to join 3 but they paying crap and my own company gave me my annual increment of 19% * yipee*

Also this means i tell 3 to take their shi**y offer and stuff it whereever they prefer it!! I also got a call to Join IBM as an Assistant Manager * Yipee*

Things at home are pretty serious and im contemplating living seperately and let Bro find his own house.
He is blaming my mother for his break up with that Wh*re of a girlfriend he had.

Mother has been crying all day and I have been on phone trying to console.

Bro has been acting really like a oversized idiot since his breakup and it's not like she treated him like dirt for the first time.

Also bro's not takin any responsibility and refuses to accept reality and wants to live in a drunken stupor most of the times..

This has irritated me no end because i foot all the bills and that leaves me broke!!

I told him the same and i told mother not to stop me since she always shields him (he is the Elder one and 30)

I am making changes and if im paying i think i have the right too(even though he works and earns)

Hope i have a good weekend!

Thats the number of posts /replies i have received till date!!!

Ouch is this an Omen? * looks around scared*

ooh my it started to rain and we have thunder storms..

Definitely an Omen

* screams and runs away*

This is just another example of how moronic my boss is and makes me wonder why I'm still working here

The Meeting finally took place for 10 minutes and I wasnt even required there except to probably add appeal with my presence as the only woman here.

This Organisation is going to the dogs!!!

All Bloody chauvenistic men with a pole stuck up their arse!

Note:
1)Never ever join a company where the work force is 98% Boring weird men who think grey and brown make a good formal dress code.
2)or wear brown floaters or open men sandals with Trousers(grey & brown appeal)
3)Stare at any woman who remotely wears clothes in her size and maybe bares 2 cms of her skin on her legs

Finally had something to eat.I didnt even havea cup of tea and was starvingzzzzz

*Oops Snoooore*

Awright! Im sleepy and I'm at work since 4:30AM(rubbing eyes)

This is unacceptable ,I left work at 6 in the Evening and I am back at work at 4.30AM.

Sheer Slavery!! Orders from Big Boss" Sophomoric Stupor". Thats what we have named him for his Moronic behaviour.

He doesnt respect anyone's time and basically is a Pr**k. He always has this weird haphazard way of working and will give you tasks to complete right when it's 15 mins for the day to get over and the task is usually huge and complex and he never helps or provides any clarification just dumps it on you and says "I want it in 30 minutes"

To sum it he is a Moron and he is an imbecile!

Over to some good news.

I made a complaint to my company to not block princessfiona.blog.co.uk and they have accepted its not obscene and sexual *yipee* *hurrah* so in the next 72 hours I will have access to reply to comments on my blog!!!!

*fecking coffee machine is not working*

* Snoooooooze*

* ouch boss here*

My brother's ex girlfriend (they had a live in for 3 years) Is married to a guys from my work place scant a month after she moved out from his place!!!

Such a B%^*ch!!

She was a twice divorced ,two kids woman my bro helped post her divorce and even took her kids in and gave them shelter when her ex husband threw her out.

My bro fell in love with her in that time and even wanted to marry her.

In the three years of living in she left him once before as well because she needed "space" and moved in with another Guy (again from my work place) for a month and then returned crying that she "loves" my bro and cant live without him.

Since she left him he has been blaming himself for making her move out and has been on drinkin binges and is totally depresssed.

Now I spoke to his ex a month ago and asked up front what the deal was between her and bro and she was so sweet and said "nothing" .

She infact made elaborate lies and told him and us all that she had to move to a different city due to work when the fact was she never moved and is very much here in this city and livin with this new guy since a month and now married.

Some women are so horrible you want to strangle them .

I am shocked and i hope my bro will be able to get over this and move on.

You Are Jennifer Aniston

Girl next door with a free spirit. You're low key and naturally sexy. Sweet and approachable, people are attracted to your upbeat attitude. And even when life doesn't go your way, you always eventually turn things around. http://www.blogthings.com/areyoumorelikejenniferorangelinaquiz/ Sorry Essex !!!!